In so much pain

I am at a complete and total loss.
I have knots in my stomach and they tighten with every second on the clock that passes....
I wrote a poem for my Cody and I will read it today at the service.
I am praying for strength to be able to make it through it. It's not that long, but is packed with emotion. At a later time, I will share it with you all.
Thank you again and again for all of the prayers. Thank you for all of the kind things that have been said and done.
I have not been left alone, but I am so alone.
With and only with God, will I make it through this day...